How can you tell her you love her and hate her at the same time?

You can’t tell her one and not the other because that would be unfair.

But how is she supposed to take that?

I love you, but I hate you at the same time… I only hate you because I love you though.

Because in order for me to hate someone I would have to care. And you’re the only one I care about… And I hate you for it.

Because you let me down everyday. I feel like I’m getting closer to you, but I know that I’m not.

“I’m predisposed to trust a photograph, to portray the way you used to laugh.”

You don’t laugh nor smile the same anymore.

Not for me at least…

“But you believed in everything but me, girl I don’t get you.”

You’d rather listen to what everyone else has to say about me than come to me yourself. You say you try, but you really don’t. You say it’s my fault because I don’t talk about my emotions. I never open up. No, I don’t talk about my emotions but the one way I can express them is through music and the one time I let you into my world… to hear what I hear… to truly understand, you gave me the headphone back so both of my ears were covered and used the opertunity to talk shit about me…

So, am I wrong for hating you?

I hate myself for hating you but at the same time I know I’m right.

As you can tell I’m trapped in a never ending cycle…

“This ain’t nothing, but it’s al I need. And the peak ain’t reached but the peak is all I feel. And it feels so good… I ain’t scared of the fall, I’ve felt the ground before.”